Peace.

For some reason, i don't know what/why, i woke up at 620am this morning. The dumbest thing i have done this year (so far), is that i stayed on my bed tossing and turning for almost 2 hours. That has gotta be the most unproductive 2 hours of my life in 2012.

So i decided to go downstairs and grab myself a cup of hot milo, and have an early breakfast with grandma. She is up early, as expected. And there was this great peace that suddenly filled the house. Everyone else, except the both of us, were still asleep (and they still are, as i'm typing this). I really enjoyed that moment of serenity. Something that i've been missing out on back at KL simply because the only reason i woke up early was to study for exams.

Then it dawned upon me that this peace that i'm enjoying may not be what my grandma is feeling. Waking up to quietness every single day and spending the whole day alone at home is definitely not something to look forward to, and it pains my heart to know that this is how she has been living for the past decade. The house only comes alive at night when my uncle comes home from work. Only at night will she have someone (in human form) to talk to and to watch TV with. I know not how she truly feels about this. But if i were her, this long term 'quietness' would be nothing but loneliness to me.

This is when i know i have made the right decision to sacrifice some possible 'achievements' that i could have had if i were to spend those few days back home, and stay here for a few more days. I don't know what else i can do for her, but i'll do what i think is right. And at this very point of time, i know it is.

I'm gonna make the best out of my semester break and make it the best one yet - both for me and grandma :)